I have talked quite a lot in these musings about how much of what we are is the result of what happened to us very early in our childhoods. Childhoods when we had little choice but to accept what was presented to us by family, teachers, peers, our religious leaders. I keep coming back to what I have carried over from that early time of life which is that “I don’t/can’t do it right”. And I can’t often predict which ‘it’, which current situation will trigger that feeling of not being able to ‘do it right’. It looks as though I will get plenty of opportunities to let go of this carryover. I am finding it is definitely not as easy as even I make it sound sometimes. And what happens when something is so badly done that you can’t do it right no matter how hard you try? In other words there are some times when it is not possible through no fault of my own ‘to do it right’. I guess it comes down to acceptance and not letting it bother you. That will be the next one I guess. Accepting the fact that there are somethings I can’t do to my satisfaction and being okay with it. I was able to take better crow pictures today. I was able to do that right.
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