This is Personal-Retirement...

After a lifetime of social work and chronic physical conditions, a positive and supportive relationship and retirement set the stage for a move from one part of the country to another and made an intensive search a reality.   Add to the mix a synchronistic friend in the form of an angel with books and ideas, and the search for the God of Love began to clear hurdles one after another.   Ken Carey, Barbara Marciniak,  Dolores Cannon, Don Miguel Ruiz, Bruce Lipton, Robert Schwartz, Michael Newton, Kryon, Gregg Braden, and, of course, Dr. David R. Hawkins,  each one slipping in to add insights to the one before or to answer the begged question.    Dr. Hawkins writes about truth and how he came to know how it can be tested.   Ask and you will find and one step after another the truth becomes clearer and you are set free one step at a time.   We probably won’t remember it all, put all the pieces together, until we leave this difficult beautiful place, this planet of joy and sorrow but there is a lot we can know now.    One makes a choice to come here knowing it can be difficult.   There are a lot of good intentions.  And then we wake up to find ourselves in these heavy clunky bodies and soon forget who we really are and where we came from.   We have no idea why we came here and why we took this body, this family, this gender, this locality.  We can only improve our situation with intent and will. Some get so bogged down in the energy of the life they are living it takes a kind of intervention from another human or a saint or angel to help them.   The more of us that make the choice for truth and compassion the faster the higher truth will spread and the faster more people will work to pull themselves out of the patterns of pain and violence that has them bogged down.   Prayer, meditation, and intent are what it takes to start and to move us on our own search for the God of Love.  

This is a Personal Story...

This is a personal story of the search for the God of Love but It is being written in third person as though it was about someone else.  I am writing it this way because I want it to be less about me than the process and hopefully not ego driven.  
There was really only one choice and that was get an education that would be involved in nature.   Wildlife and forestry was chosen but somewhere in the middle something changed and it became philosophy.   The philosophy would allow the entry into Lutheran Seminary to become a Lutheran minister.   And that was what happened.  The first and only year of seminary was difficult.  It turned out that, at least in this case, theology professors did not like anyone asking them questions.  They were not questions designed to make the professors look bad they were just the questions of an inquiring mind.   One of the professors even said that the person asking these questions like was hard to love.  This from the place that was supposed to teach the God of Love.   The questioner stopped asking questions because he left seminary, disappointed, angry, but even more determined to find the God of Love.  Now without a profession when a job in social services was offered it was gratefully accepted.   That was the beginning of a lifelong service in social work.   Transcendental meditation, psychics, mysticism, book after book became part of the search sandwiched between emotionally taxing work and dealing with the rest of life’s problems.   Shamanism seemed a nice fit but an invitation to study under a Lakota holy man was turned down.  A Lakota Pipe Carrier seemed as narrow as Lutheran Minister. (Did you know that both the Lakota and the Buddhists fly prayer flags?)
More books....  Jane Roberts and Seth, A COURSE IN MIRACLES, and Neale Donald Walsh and CONVERSATIONS WITH GOD.  Neale’s CONVERSATIONS struck a chord.  Here was the God of Love that the search was all about.  The searcher had always clung to the words from the Christian Bible.  “Ask and you shall find.”  and “You will know the truth and the truth shall set you free”.  Could it be that the questioning seminarian and the pipe carrier dropout was finally finding a truth?